單人相親記實

應著保險業務員的不停邀約,她口中一直說人很不錯.40出頭...我想...也應該多認識人才有機會...

第二次的邀約,她又多講了他一些好話,工作是家教,有個弟弟在台南當皮膚科醫生,家境不錯,母親一直要人家介紹女生給她兒子

好吧..那就看看囉..當做吃飯就好

一到現場,他們一行人,男主角加弟弟,弟媳及二個小女兒已經在位置上,一入座聽她喊"x老師"我便知道我隔壁那位就是男主角

第一印象: 臃腫....身體腫...臉也腫...五官ok..欠缺運動,減肥一下應該可以..(好吧..60分)

之後業務員開始問他一些工作,生活上興趣...(真像媒人啊,我就聽聽吧) 問著問著...突然轉頭道: "耶~x老師,玲秀她是我的保戶,今天也是第一次參加" (幹麼對著他報告我的事) 男主角沒啥反應..就點點頭...

業務員: x老師,你從何時開始教家教啊?

男主角: 大學開始 (啊..從大學時代就開始當宅男嗎?)

業務員: x老師,你什麼大學畢業的啊?

男主角: 中山

業務員: x老師,玲秀她是讀文藻的....西文系對吧(還看著我確認一下,我只好點頭)

又繼續問...x老師...你們家我去過幾次,但每次都會迷路,你們家到底在哪啊?

男主角: 16公園那邊

業務員: 啊?什麼路啊?

男主角: 民生路

業務員: 那個x老師,玲秀她是住在旗津 (靠~幹麻又特地提我住哪裡) 男主角又點點頭..繼續低頭吃東西 ,

業務員: x老師..玲秀她和我一樣都是屬龍的...那你是屬什麼?

男主角: 猴

業務員: 那就跟我妹一樣了...x老師,你有沒有用msn啊? (什麼? 別跟我說要我留msn給他)

男主角: 我都用即時通

業務員: 那你之前不是用skype?

男主角: 我移除掉了

業務員: 那你和你弟講電話就用市話囉? (什麼跟什麼啊,他們才相隔一城市,又不是二個國家,用什麼通話重要嗎?)

男主角: 不會答..繼續吃他的..(沒禮貌,扣分)

業務員: 耶..玲秀,那妳有用msn嗎? (有也要說沒有)

我: 我公司不能用msn,我都用另一個系統

業務員: 那是哪一個系統?

我: google 的,但是它不能像msn那樣傳檔或表情,就只有文字

業務員: 那有防火牆問題嗎?

我: 只要可以上網就可以用,不須下載軟體

接著業務員開始和我閒聊...我就悄聲對她說...不用特地向他介紹我的事情出來...就閒聊就好了..

吃到2/3...新產品介紹開始了.....30分鐘介紹 (其間提止上菜,大家都停筷了,只見他不急不徐的挾桌上的菜,一掃而光...介紹完畢又開始上剩下的菜....他又持續挾新菜) (沒節制,扣分)

業務員: x老師,以後多多參加我們活動嘛

男主角: 不要..我不喜歡這種場合

業務員: 為什麼? 就和你弟一家人出來,連絡感情啊?

男主角: 這種場合很無聊,我和我弟隨時都可以連絡感情 (操~心理就算無聊也不該當邀請人面前講吧,沒品,扣分)

業務員: 總之,希望你能多多出來參加活動,我們一起申請google帳號嘛~ (此時,餐會已開始散場,他擦擦嘴吧..隨便揮手就牽著小朋友快步離去)

業務員: 玲秀...不好意思,他好像有點不高興,他不喜歡這種場合.他並不知道今天來除了餐會還有要認識新朋友

我: 沒關係,那他弟弟知道嗎?

業務員: 嗯..他們都知道,但沒有人跟男主角提,我是想說他人不錯才想介紹給妳

我: 你一直問他的事情,他不是你保戶嗎?

業務員: 不是..他是我主管的保戶,我去過他家二次.每次都擦身而過(那妳怎麼會說他不錯咧!?)

我: 講真的...不談外表...他給我的感覺..是自私的人

業務員: 會嗎?

我: 所謂自私,不是指個人,而是他眼中只有他家人才是人,才是須要去交流的,我們這些不相干的人,他連回應都隨便

之後又聊了一些事才知道..她所謂不錯是指...男方家境不錯,聽說最近又要買房子了..所以她認為我在貿易公司上班,又會外語,所以條件也不錯..應該可以相互認識...但事後她也覺得男方太不太方了,所以對我很抱歉...

本來答應小護士要照相給她看..但是一開始沒多久..我就連和他交流的想法都沒有了,到最後,連連絡都沒有必要

何必照相? 我沒有生氣...只覺得祝福他們一家人

回到家後...一看到鞋子...啥!?...居然刮破了.!!! 雪特!

以上..

終於可以

二年又七個月,從剛開始的痛苦,低落,見面時的不自在,生氣你連一句道歉都沒有...
曾經 我不願意對任何人打開心房 別人的進一步 就是我的退一步
我以為 這樣的日子要持續很久很久
當朋友問起要不要約你時 我心理掙扎很大 該怎麼面對 該誰去連絡
就算透過信件 我也必須小心亦亦 不可流露出任何情緒
朋友知道我的事 也只能裝做若無其事

那二天旅遊回來 我們終於可以有交談 是閒聊也是談心
也許是我的心終於可以面對你了

那天 第一次見到他 並沒有多大感覺 直到朋友說我們很適合
我以為對方知道 我以為對方有注意到我
於是 第二次見面後 眼光不自覺跟著他跑
時常的想起他 想和他見面
不知不覺 我居然可以因為期待他而心動
而面對你 可以恢復到以往的初

我感謝老天終於可以讓我脫離那自我的禁固
重新面對你 重新面對生活
我相信 就算現在接到你的喜帖 我也能衷心祝福你了

要躲到哪兒去?

從什麼時候開始, 我又厭惡起你的碰觸了? 是對你的不滿還是嗅出那一點不該出現的味道
不要使勁討好我,找盡各種言不及意的話題,拜託你過好自己的人生好嗎?
別任意碰我, 現在我身上可是裝滿地雷, 哪天踏爆了, 死的是誰還不知道
blog不敢寫, msn 抬頭也不能..聊天三句我就想罵人, 是你欠罵還是我有病?
就算是我有病好了, 麻煩你收起你的關心, 我不是你的誰 ,禁止用過度關心口氣及行為對我

勞伯狄尼洛?

1997年聖誕節前二天....Jennifer和我飛往夢想中的國度-義大利,旅行的時間3週,記錄了照片及V8,可惜當時技術不佳,只轉錄成VHS,而V8母帶不知丟到哪兒了.

前幾天突然找到一些照片,抽出二張比較有意思的,上一張是和朋友在雪地前的合照,大家都說他像某影星,看出來了嗎? 像Robert Di Niro嗎? 小護士說..很像很像 ~

充滿創造細胞的Jennifer...喜歡嚐試各種手工藝品diy,而我也常常收到一些她的作品.這是她寄給我的卡片..文筆也不錯吧!

集結幾張我們喜歡的照片...做成的卡片封面,上個彩,壓個膜..9年如新.

Angle

有時..我會想起天使,已經九年了, 這是很長的時間但是卻很短就過,天使他有很多痛苦,他沒有翅膀可以飛,他沒有足夠的愛,他只是告訴我...天使,我的愛只能如此, 我不確定我還有其他的愛可以給別人...我走了...我的天使哭了...
天使...在閣樓的日子..是溫暖但寂寞...你是灰天使,也有著午夜的禁忌,空氣中只留下你的氣味與餘溫,漸漸...冰冷.
今天..我又想起你...突然看見二週前你留在黃色微笑的片語...我輕描淡寫的回應你我的想念...我想..這一次你又要關起那藏不住的心...

裸體

我夢見自己赤身裸體在街上,我自己脫掉的,而且是必須,當我回頭要穿回衣服時,周遭的人全目瞪口呆看著我,似乎無法理解為何會出現一個裸體的人,我不覺羞恥..但在拾起衣物時卻無法將之順利穿上...然後..我醒了...

my philosophy for life

Regarding my philosophy for life, there is a small story I would like to share to you, 6 years ago I have a chance to meet a military group from Jordan, and they were here for interchange with military reason between Taiwan and Jordan. In that time I were worked for travel agency and they can not find any other young girl who speaks English, so I had honored to be their tour leader to guide them around Taiwan on every weekend. There is an officer who always taking with me and discuss about philosophy for life. I was not too young but I don’t know much about the philosophy, one day he told me and said: Michelle, life is too short to live, so you mast keep 4 things in your life, which is “eat well, sleep well, keep the faith and die anywhere”. I didn’t know so much about this until few weeks later, there is a soldier from their team die in a accident when attend a mission. They cried all night but next day no one cry anymore. They said: Allah is calling him to back to his side; we should not cry to long for him that is his destiny.

One year after, they were back to their country for a long time, this officer became the commander and in charge a military maneuvers in front of King of Jordan. The were do sky diving but the helicopter breakdown in the air and steep dived, this officer ignore his life and pushing other soldiers out of helicopter, but it was no enough time, until they crashed, still have 13 soldiers in helicopter, include this officer.

And now, I realize, life is too short and too much difficult to live, I should do something I want to do, and at least I have to try to do and not just dream about it.

Final, I would like to share “never giving up what I dream of is my principle.” Actually I have achieved many dreams I have. Latest is come to WENTZOU, this is my dream when I was 15 years old. I have dream about to visit Italy, I have be there twice, I have dream about to work oversea, and I did…such like that, so I want to tell you one thing is make a small dream and “just do it” and than , make another small dream…and so on….

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Eric's wold 來自比利時的愛情忠言

A relation is the most dificult melting chemistry in the world,it has to come from both sides, the think is that the one completes the other...and the other completes the one. You have to maried someone who feels the same as you do. Give him a little more time and try to support him, try to find a good moment and a good place and try to talk about it. And after all if you married and have children it is better. it is with the right person. Time resolves everything. Everybody wants to be happy in life,and everybody has the right to be. Do not marry somebody that you don't love.Life is too beautiful to live in hell. To be sure that you will be happy for the rest of your life. Once you have time to live what you want to live, you will be a happy person.

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Come back to my love

My love is getting stranger. That is the way I love, first I just enjoy and give same love back. and than , day by day,my love to you is getting more and more.

My eyes always follow you, my ears always listen you, my hand just want you hold. my lips need a kiss from you.

To hear your voice to make me sleep, to lie in your arm to have sweet dream, to feel your touch just like to have your love.

This is me that you don't know. I want to tell you but you won't go.
All I want just you love me more. All the problems could be solve.

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I feel sick

I feel sick, I feel hard to breath
I can stop to thinking why? What happend? If he is not the one I need, why I feel so pain?

I want to separte with him, isn't it? I want my mind free, his family relationship is big pressure for me. I should be happy but it does pain me..

Tears no more

我沒有哭 即使眼淚已經快要浮出
我不能哭 淚一流我的世界就模糊
我沒有哭 但我不能掩飾心中痛苦
我不能哭 我只能當作我從未付出

I didn't cry, but the tears was around my eyes;
I couldn't cry, I will crash from the sky;
I didn't cry, but there is pain on my mine;
I couldn't cry, no one wants to say goodbye.

I WAS BORN TO ROAMING AROUND

There is something in my blood, different from the ordinary men. At least I felt this way.
To explore this world from the ideological or spiritual outlook to real activities.

I thought and I am here

I ate. I dreamed. I loveed and I gave

I laughed. I cried. I angered. I feared.

I begged there is moonshine to light on my way in the darkness.

I wished there is sunshine to warm my heart when I sadness.

Dear

Will you be my eyes

Can you touch my mind

have you....